there is so much i want to say today

so much i want to write

something within me wants to be let out

yet

i fight to keep it in

to live and die

as the man i am not

i hide my weakness

but i acknowledge it to myself

and in it’s security, i am secure

for it is me

i can live with myself

to you

who try and understand me

i am confusing

and i do not acknowledge